To Basil
Hello Basil!
I wanted to have a page where I can deposit what I think about / for you, like a diary page, or a letter to you, that I never fully sign and close :3 Or maybe like an ongoing conversation, if you join in! be my digital penpal
Where I'll hopefully put some images, things we have shared, and things i'd like to share...
the first thing that comes to mind to me that i'd want to like... talk about and carve into my site is that i Love Your Art ^w^ i feel very touched to have gotten to see the pieces that I have and i really hope to see more :3... I am always surprised by how fast you improve :o your abilities with physical mediums definitely exceed mine! I Love how you work with color, So Much. I loved watching you draw, i loved how unpredictable it could be, but it was relaxing. I Love that I can't do what you do. I've looked at our collab piece several times since i've gotten back home ^w^ And continued decorating the page around the postcard you gave me of your cats. The piece you colored feels so much more vibrant than i remember, every single time i look at it. It is beautiful, and rich. I feel like your work is beautiful and impressionistic...
I am curious about your writing sometimes, just your ideas. I hope I get to follow along a storyline of yours sometime :3. 
I remember the first piece where i realized I Really liked your art and it made me impressed with the way you think... was this piece with a street lamp on the side of the street. I think it was something about the way the things were colored in the light vs out of it... This makes me hope you will archive some of your art online :3 at least so i can look at it.
I think a lot about it since you've said it, when you described remembering and recalling as "running your fingers over those grooves" in your memory... I think in some way it has made me feel like... Happier about remembering sweet things :3 working it into my mind as a memory. I enjoy talking to you a lot, you're very fun and smart and make me smile a lot :3 i always look forward to our next conversation.
I hope we get to go on more walks together :o and maybe go to an aquarium again sometime. its fun to draw next to you for me, even though i dont think i stay seated the whole time. Right now the world cup is happening! I hope you're staying safe and cool, it's suuuuper hot right now. I love how i didn't grasp at all what it meant when you and brendan tried to warn me about the world cup coming up, and to not be where you were at the time, cuz it'd be so busy. I did Not grasp it, i thought it was gonna be like One game LOL
I loved the pictures you took :3 I like your eye with the digital camera...
You took these! If anyone else is reading this, here's his site, cuz i dont wanna post his beautiful images without credit :P Though, turning my attention back to you, Basil, I think it'd be awesome if you archived some of your photos / art somewhere :3 ik i say this allll the time and its cuz i really wanna See! Plus its kinda like journalling :3 you understand yourself better and meditate on ideas and Store Them...
I feel like you are So Smart. You definitely don't need someone like Me to tell you that, but not just with academics, Also with your Heart... I am often like... impressed when i talk to you cuz you can get me to think about things I hadn't even considered, and you bring them up with such a friendly tone :D! I really think you've Changed My Mind in a lot of important ways, just by talking about what you think.
I love that you love fish a Lot! When I was a kid, i really hoped I could see more aquariums when I got older. I used to say my favorite animal was a neon tetra, because I read about it in an aquarium guide when I was a kid. When I was still in kindergarten, my favorite book to check out during reading time was the fish encyclopedia. I liked to look at the pictures and try to remember their names / what they looked like. I didnt realize I did it every time until one day, this kid named Daniel got it first, and when I couldnt find it he was basically like "Are you looking for This? :smug:?" (he wasnt smug he was like. idk 6 or however old u are in kindergarten idk) It makes me feel really happy and seen that you can also Really Appreciate Fish! I like feeling like we can slow down to Look at the fish :] I think i kind of hope we can go snorkelling in some Environment some day, i've never seen reefs or anything in real life or like, anywhere you can swim with fish, i dont think (excpet like Lakes and. The Ocean LOL theyre in there!) i am curious about what you think. did they ever touch you. You probably werent allowed to touch them huh?
You inspire me to live and grow you're a core fifi and one of the first people to help me believe that we can shape a future for us, that Feels Good :,3 you fill me with Hope. My life is more beautiful with you in it, and i am grateful we met.
Make many more memories with me Basil, I love you!
I wanted to have a page where I can deposit what I think about / for you, like a diary page, or a letter to you, that I never fully sign and close :3 Or maybe like an ongoing conversation, if you join in! be my digital penpal
Where I'll hopefully put some images, things we have shared, and things i'd like to share...
the first thing that comes to mind to me that i'd want to like... talk about and carve into my site is that i Love Your Art ^w^ i feel very touched to have gotten to see the pieces that I have and i really hope to see more :3... I am always surprised by how fast you improve :o your abilities with physical mediums definitely exceed mine! I Love how you work with color, So Much. I loved watching you draw, i loved how unpredictable it could be, but it was relaxing. I Love that I can't do what you do. I've looked at our collab piece several times since i've gotten back home ^w^ And continued decorating the page around the postcard you gave me of your cats. The piece you colored feels so much more vibrant than i remember, every single time i look at it. It is beautiful, and rich. I feel like your work is beautiful and impressionistic...
I am curious about your writing sometimes, just your ideas. I hope I get to follow along a storyline of yours sometime :3.
I remember the first piece where i realized I Really liked your art and it made me impressed with the way you think... was this piece with a street lamp on the side of the street. I think it was something about the way the things were colored in the light vs out of it... This makes me hope you will archive some of your art online :3 at least so i can look at it.
I think a lot about it since you've said it, when you described remembering and recalling as "running your fingers over those grooves" in your memory... I think in some way it has made me feel like... Happier about remembering sweet things :3 working it into my mind as a memory. I enjoy talking to you a lot, you're very fun and smart and make me smile a lot :3 i always look forward to our next conversation.
I hope we get to go on more walks together :o and maybe go to an aquarium again sometime. its fun to draw next to you for me, even though i dont think i stay seated the whole time. Right now the world cup is happening! I hope you're staying safe and cool, it's suuuuper hot right now. I love how i didn't grasp at all what it meant when you and brendan tried to warn me about the world cup coming up, and to not be where you were at the time, cuz it'd be so busy. I did Not grasp it, i thought it was gonna be like One game LOL
I loved the pictures you took :3 I like your eye with the digital camera...
You took these! If anyone else is reading this, here's his site, cuz i dont wanna post his beautiful images without credit :P Though, turning my attention back to you, Basil, I think it'd be awesome if you archived some of your photos / art somewhere :3 ik i say this allll the time and its cuz i really wanna See! Plus its kinda like journalling :3 you understand yourself better and meditate on ideas and Store Them...
I think a lot about the time we were in your dorm in Mass, laying on the ground with the lights dimmed, listening to NIN. I felt so happy... I also sometimes think about when we talked outside of your dorm, we might have sat on the boulder outside, i know we looked at the stars. You told me you regretted not being present and appreciative for some of the things in your life that you had to leave behind, or couldnt access anymore. I remember you mentioned, i think it was a family member? That i think passed away, and you felt like you could have done more to like. Have had a relationship with him. A potential friend, i think. I remember you said you were trying very hard to be appreciative of what you had Now, but Now what you had was Massachussetts. I think you coming to New England helped me a lot. I don't know if i'd feel real if you didn't. I am glad you're happier where you are, even if it's not every day :3 I am hopeful and excited for you, and our shared future. I'm sorry I am being slow, but i promise I am committed to it.
I feel like you are So Smart. You definitely don't need someone like Me to tell you that, but not just with academics, Also with your Heart... I am often like... impressed when i talk to you cuz you can get me to think about things I hadn't even considered, and you bring them up with such a friendly tone :D! I really think you've Changed My Mind in a lot of important ways, just by talking about what you think.
I love that you love fish
a Lot! When I was a kid, i really hoped I could see more aquariums when I got older. I used to say my favorite animal was a neon tetra, because I read about it in an aquarium guide when I was a kid. When I was still in kindergarten, my favorite book to check out during reading time was the fish encyclopedia. I liked to look at the pictures and try to remember their names / what they looked like. I didnt realize I did it every time until one day, this kid named Daniel got it first, and when I couldnt find it he was basically like "Are you looking for This? :smug:?" (he wasnt smug he was like. idk 6 or however old u are in kindergarten idk) It makes me feel really happy and seen that you can also Really Appreciate Fish! I like feeling like we can slow down to Look at the fish :] I think i kind of hope we can go snorkelling in some Environment some day, i've never seen reefs or anything in real life or like, anywhere you can swim with fish, i dont think (excpet like Lakes and. The Ocean LOL theyre in there!) i am curious about what you think. did they ever touch you. You probably werent allowed to touch them huh?
You inspire me to live and grow
you're a core fifi and one of the first people to help me believe that we can shape a future for us, that Feels Good :,3 you fill me with Hope. My life is more beautiful with you in it, and i am grateful we met.
Make many more memories with me Basil, I love you!
7/2/26 
I am so glad you "wrote back" ^w^! I feel like your tone can read a lot like a letter, but I enjoy the inline links as well Heh... I Love This Medium a lot.
Your book sounds very interesting, I hope I can give it a look! I don't think I've ever read Silent Spring either, I havent actually read many books past like :p being a kid... I'd like to read more though :3 I've made it a GOOD way through House of Leaves, but... it turns out Bad Things Happen In That Book D:! I didnt know!! I think I'm very near the end (it can be a little tough to tell sometimes) but I've just had a bit of trouble getting through the last bit. Do you ever struggle to get through the end of a book? I feel like it's the hardest part for me. I feel like 150 pages shouldn't be a tough read though...
I'm glad you made it to the book store :3 It makes me think about how... I might be spending a lot more time with you, a lot sooner than I thought.. I, again, appreciate the kindness and space you offer me in your life and I hope to honor it i hope once im recovered we can be exploring buddies :,3 ... I'm a little scared I think, because I'm almost worried it will be Too Much life for me. I grew up homeschooled in rural texas, never left the house, moved to rural new england, and then still never left the house. I'm scared I'll get like shock or something. I'm a little scared... But you also talk to me like you believe in me :,3 and discuss options with me.. It chokes me up just recalling it. I really want to live up to that belief.
i have been trying to appreciate being where I am more, and I've also been trying to push myself to practice driving more! I Really wanted to finish before i left but :,[ I don't think it's in the cards right now... I just hope i can learn other things in the meantime.
I Also look forward to watching the midnight gospel :3 I am eager to know what you will think... I keep talking about it, i'll put it down here. The second episode is very meaningful to me (And the last episode, of course) because it gave me little pieces that were easy for me to work with. I don't think it will be the most Interesting episode to you, I think there are guests you will find more interesting, but to Me it is the most comforting... I think for me it can sometimes help me with ... Accepting... That sometimes the world Is painful to you, and you will hurt, and you will be okay. I think it helps me a lot to hear from adults who sound like they have Experience and have lived life, and something about that guest and the way she talks (and the deer dog shes presented as! its very cute!) makes her even more comforting to me. I really hope you like it. If you don't though thats okay, we'll have plenty of other things, including other Episodes to watch!
I want to be a good friend to you... I look forward to learning how to be in new ways.
I am so glad you "wrote back" ^w^! I feel like your tone can read a lot like a letter, but I enjoy the inline links as well Heh... I Love This Medium a lot.
Your book sounds very interesting, I hope I can give it a look! I don't think I've ever read Silent Spring either, I havent actually read many books past like :p being a kid... I'd like to read more though :3 I've made it a GOOD way through House of Leaves, but... it turns out Bad Things Happen In That Book D:! I didnt know!! I think I'm very near the end (it can be a little tough to tell sometimes) but I've just had a bit of trouble getting through the last bit. Do you ever struggle to get through the end of a book? I feel like it's the hardest part for me. I feel like 150 pages shouldn't be a tough read though...
I'm glad you made it to the book store :3 It makes me think about how... I might be spending a lot more time with you, a lot sooner than I thought.. I, again, appreciate the kindness and space you offer me in your life and I hope to honor it
i hope once im recovered we can be exploring buddies :,3 ... I'm a little scared I think, because I'm almost worried it will be Too Much life for me. I grew up homeschooled in rural texas, never left the house, moved to rural new england, and then still never left the house. I'm scared I'll get like shock or something. I'm a little scared... But you also talk to me like you believe in me :,3 and discuss options with me.. It chokes me up just recalling it. I really want to live up to that belief.
i have been trying to appreciate being where I am more, and I've also been trying to push myself to practice driving more! I Really wanted to finish before i left but :,[ I don't think it's in the cards right now... I just hope i can learn other things in the meantime.
I Also look forward to watching the midnight gospel :3 I am eager to know what you will think... I keep talking about it, i'll put it down here. The second episode is very meaningful to me (And the last episode, of course) because it gave me little pieces that were easy for me to work with. I don't think it will be the most Interesting episode to you, I think there are guests you will find more interesting, but to Me it is the most comforting... I think for me it can sometimes help me with ... Accepting... That sometimes the world Is painful to you, and you will hurt, and you will be okay. I think it helps me a lot to hear from adults who sound like they have Experience and have lived life, and something about that guest and the way she talks (and the deer dog shes presented as! its very cute!) makes her even more comforting to me. I really hope you like it. If you don't though thats okay, we'll have plenty of other things, including other Episodes to watch!
I want to be a good friend to you... I look forward to learning how to be in new ways.
